All’s Still Vanity

Pensively this morning, lingering with thoughts that ran across my mind, culminating with the question: Where is this all headed?

I am fancied at the idea and opportunity, God being our Helper, of course; to make a great life for ourselves as a family, raise our children well, try to be a blessing to others, do what’s right…etc

I wonder, what’s it all for at the end of the day?

I nod to myself, as I reflect on the words of the Ecclesiastes writer, “All is vanity”.

When all things are considered, that appears to be the final resolve: vanity.

It seems, no matter what we do, acquire, give or make hell of, all eventually becomes naught.

So then, what makes this moment, this action, plan or idea, blessing or cursing significant?

The waves and flow of life will continue to ripple forward, outward and away…

In hopes that the conclusion of the matter proves mighty, as we navigate through this certain uncertainty called life

Drawing Closer to God

For those who want to draw closer to God but may not know how, here’s a few tips (in no particular order):

1. Give God thanks- Despite all that’s going on, surely there are things to express gratitude to God for.

2. Pray- Talk to the Lord, tell Him what’s on your heart and mind.

3. Read and meditate on His Word: Take time to read the Bible (in a translation you understand). You can start with a topic or a theme that may connect to your situation or feelings.

4. Confess and repent- Declare (and practice) turning away from behaviors that you discover through reading God’s Word, are not pleasing to Him or against His ways.

5. Practice forgiveness and show love- What are you holding on to, who do you have grudges against? Forgiveness and love helps develop the sincere Christ-like qualities within us and brings out humility.

This is not an exhaustive list but I think it’s a good starting point. I believe these steps will help open us to become more in tune with God’s Word and His will for our lives.

Isaiah 55:6- Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near: 7. Let the wicked forsake his way, and the unrighteous man his thoughts: and let him return unto the LORD, and he will have mercy upon him; and to our God, for he will abundantly pardon.

Be blessed

 

Grace In Action

For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God
(Ephesians 2:8, nkjv)

Grace, more commonly known as, the unmerited favor of God-this is how we’ve received His salvation-by nothing we have done and nothing we can do will ever be able to undo the work that Jesus has done for us on the cross

We love grace!

We love the freedom and the innumerable chances it grants us to be in right standing with God

Grace which affords us the liberty to enter into our God’s gates with thanksgiving and into His courts boasting His praises

Grace is beautiful!

God’s grace is bountiful and boundless

Grace this powerful should not be a one way street, nor hoarded as if there is not enough to go around

As we freely receive this grace that we constantly do nothing to earn, what about freely giving this great grace to another in return?

Surely we can think of someone we may have misunderstood or mistakenly walked past in offense-perhaps there’s someone who legitimately did you wrong

But let’s consider grace, the big picture, are they not worthy of receipt, just like you?

The Challenge:

Don’t hold  grace hostage- in this case, don’t withhold the grace that you feel another person may not deserve-the grace you give may be as freeing as salvation

Of course the grace we give could never compare to what Jesus did for us on the cross; the grace we have looks completely different

Our grace may look like, an “I am sorry,”

“I was wrong,”

Or telling someone, “There’s value in you!”

Grace may even manifest in a long overdue hug.

It’s not always easy, perhaps you’ll need to start with asking God to help you put grace in action even if it takes baby steps

-selah

 

Write a poem about: A Tree

Sometimes we don’t recognize our own strength until we look back over our lives and realize that we’re still here!

I’ve been through what seems like hell and back, and I’m still here, but not just me, my people too; my ancestry

The deep dark truth that hangs from silent trees-seemingly existing only in books, movies and memories- twice removed

Shades of mahogany, chocolate and vanilla swirled with mud and tears of resistance

Seeds planted in forbidden soil have grown into unmovable trees

Resist us!

Resist us?

Fighting from resist-stance

Arms held high, hands wide open and visible yet they still shoots us

Branches on this tree, the blood of you and me only in the books, movies and memories twice removed

Desire, One Day at a Time

 

I want to be lazy and give in to indifference; making the minimum effort (read a little and pray a little) just enough to note a difference or a slight increase in my usual devotion, but not enough for it to hurt, stretch or challenge me. This, I know, is a crazy and impossible way to think when true transformation is the goal.

Being honest with myself, I can conclude that I am often times neglectful with placing Our engagement as a priority. Usually making Our time a past-time-as in an afterthought. I am tempted to glory in the fact that at least I do make sure to spend time with You consistently, but the reality is it’s not my Best time; not when I am my sharpest or most energetic, but often when I am tired and about to call it quits for the day-

You deserve so much more than my scraps!

Your Word, God, however, gives me strength; it fuels me to read deeper and draws my heart to fall on my knees in prayer-sacred time with You. It reminds me of my minute existence in the core of Your grand hand. I am joined to the fact that You are worthy of me surrendering anything that I could ever consider to be a sacrifice and my obedience above that.

My desire is to be All-In with You.

In order to be successful, I will look at Our day by day and not the perfect picture because sometimes that overwhelms me. I am looking forward to growth and am also preparing for the growing pains. I will open my arms to the discomfort in shedding the ‘comfy me’ and work on releasing my need to be in control. You have already promised that You are with me.

Thank You for going before me. Continue reading “Desire, One Day at a Time”

Confront Pride and Apologize

Ever notice that we are usually the offended and NEVER the offender? We often deem ourselves in the right to receive an apology and very FEW times realize we have wronged, hurt and even BROKEN others and therefore need to make things RIGHT….

Acknowledging this undesirable truth about ourselves is not easy, but it’s necessary, if we expect real healing to occur-for us and the other person.

Time-out for just sweeping our wrongs under the carpet and ‘moving on’.

Being humble enough to sincerely say ‘I’m sorry’ or admit to being wrong is not always easy, but broken-chains and FREEDOM will be the result.

How many good friends and family members have we lost?

How many celebrations have we missed?

How many victories have WE FORFEITED, just because we’ve failed to confront our own pride and Apologize?

#JustAQuestion #SomethingToThinkAbout #PleaseConsider #GodHelpUs #GodHelpMe

Think, write and get lost

Many times, guided by ur human nature, we tend to feel the need to always have the answers, the need to always have solutions or reasonable explanations to what is, what is not and what lies in between. As we learn more and more, we should realize that we know less and less. This realization may not cause us to have any less conviction in the “why” section of the way that we choose to live our lives and where we have committed our faith. We should be, however, more open-minded in our understanding of how other people live their lives.

I would like to somehow (temporarily) live outside of this body, float outside my thoughts and experiences only, and really see what it is that makes up our complete existence, that, however, is an impossibility. Therefore, I try to see people as a big picture, not just as an action or an in-the-moment choice, but as the perpetual result of their experiences, understandings, actions.

Our world is changing daily and as we speak, what has been stated as facts and absolutes are now deemed as options and mere possibilities. We are afraid to state as a matter-of-fact who we are and what we believe, when years ago, the basis of how we lived our lives was hinged upon those very declarations.

I wonder, where has the very root of these changes even come from? Who had thought to question the way life is lived? Was it someone just poking around to be different and to go against the grain, or someone in deep search for their truth outside of the norm? Are these questions a battle to be fought, or a wave to be caressed and rode out into the next phase of life? Are we as a human race leading ourselves into a greater realization of who we are and what we were created to be or are we exposing the frailty of our existence toward self destruction? Becoming our own gods-our very own creators. People with thousands of problems and twice that number in answers-yet no solutions, still no solutions.

Perhaps one day we will confess that we do not know it all and that, just like you, there may be a teeny tiny chance that we ourselves have missed the mark, too.

Pack my bags

After finding out Trump was elected as our next president, I started to pack my bags so that, as he wishes, I could return to my home country…

Which made me begin to wonder, where the hell do I really come from?? 

Oh right, 

My ancestors were brought here against their wishes, 

And at some point, raped by their ‘owners’ {it hurts to even write that}

That’s the only way I can logically account for my great grandmother’s red hair and white skin,

– I doubt the fairy tailed- ‘our mixed love against the world’ is a greater possibility for how his-story actually went down…

So, again I ask myself, where am I going? 

The muddiness of this answer is found much deeper than at ancestry.com…

Internally I am vexed to point fingers and wage war 

Like, literally go to blows with people who have long gone from this earth, 

But who have left their blood of laws, lies and hate to perpetually speak on their behalf. 

I just want to tell them that we are worthy! 

Shake them up and let them know that we are worthy! 

Slap their faces, look them straight in the eyes and shout to them, “WE ARE WORTHY!” 

Wake them up and while trying to catch my breath, yell at them:

WE! 

ARE! 

WORTHY! 

TOO! 

After all, we were all once strangers on this soil…

God! This feels futile! 

These thoughts and frustrations are exhaustive… 

So, for a moment of peace of mind, I walk away from this reality with my bags half packed, 

Back to my smile…

Welcome Back?

I’ve written many posts and in so doing, have shared most of my life’s updates with you, but the major downside is, I’ve only done so in my head. On reality, it has been well over a year since I’ve posted anything new, well, actually closer to two years. I’ve finally surrendered to the fact that I’m very bad at this consistent writing thing so now I must look for a new method. 

I write this post in hopes that I will actually complete it and not only that, but that I will also upload it so that eyes other than my own can view. Attached to that hope is also the thought that perhaps my passion for writing will reignite and I will begin another writing and posting spree, no matter if it’s temporary. One of those things only time will tell. 

   

   

Fear Factor

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I enjoy sitting in front of this computer, but it seems I never have the time, but deep down, the truth is, there is time when I make time, and I have not been making time the way that I know I can. There are always thoughts and ideas running through my mind of what I can write about, but most times, these inspirations are suppressed by Fear. Fear has turned my dreams into a nightmare and Procrastination has been its sedative!  Day after day I awake with a heart filled with passion for things I would like to see happen in my life; publishing a book, becoming a certified Sign Language interpreter, starting a side business…and the list goes on. As the numbers of candles on my birthday cake go higher and higher it is clear that I am not getting any younger. Focus and motivation dance before me, like two blind flames relentlessly fighting in the dark; sometimes energized and ready to win and others, distracted by the desire to simply stay aflame.

There are many different kinds of fear that contend against me putting effort toward my goals, but it can all be summed up as the “Fear of the Unknown”-not knowing whether I will succeed or fail, lingers in the back of my mind. It’s hidden under almost every excuse and distraction and is often found in the basin of what appears to be progress and busyness. Procrastination is always moving, appearing to be active, but is never productive. It makes you feel as if you are making headway, but never renders any edible fruit or proof. In order to realize our goals, we have to pull Fear and Procrastination from the bowels of our thoughts and stare them in the face and create a counteractive plan.  It is not an easy thing to bring the subconscious to the forefront of our minds, so we must practice it. Routinely ask ourselves a few questions and evaluate what’s holding us back and then take steps in a progressive direction.

There are many things in my life that require my constant and loyal attention like my God, my family, my finances (employment) and some others. The loyal managing of these things can cause the other, more personal goals to be placed on the back burner, especially when there is the physical and mental need to rest. I know that taking care of myself is of utmost importance because if I don’t take care of myself, I may eventually  not be well enough to take care of anyone or anything else. But there also needs to be time and focus designated to step-by-step work on my other goals. It is this understanding that forces me to identify my Fear and push past Procrastination and at the very least, make the attempt toward achieving my goals-something that, I’m glad to report, I’ve already started. Stay tuned.